10th Post

hey..

I'm under lots of stress now. And many of it is just unnecessary stress from my dad. Out of the blue, he told me that he feels that i will screw up in my homework. He said that my attitude towards work suck. He says that he expects me to be more responsible but dosen;t see that me. i am really very tired. very stress. He questions why i go school early. He says he suspects its because of girls. i mean WTF. He relates everything to the influence to girls. He loves bring up the past. He loves condemning. Some times, i even wonder if i am worth anything. i feel so worthless. I feel so unconfident. I feel so very hurt. Sometimes its at this point of time when i really need a shoulder to cry on. Someone to comfort me. To understand me. but i have a phobia.

Everytime my life is peaceful, he will wreck havoc.

Can anyone just understand me?
Can anyone just show me that like others, i too have feelings. And i get hurt damn easily.

i've just cried. Poured my emotions to my best friend. The one who has always(mostly) been there for me whenever i feel down.--- My mum. she told me not to take things so seriously. She told me to relax. She told me that my dad was afraid that i would repeat the same mistake. Honestly. I don;t think i would. But i don;t think he is ready for this answer.

Only tears could fully express how i feel now.

And while i let it drain itself, i'll think.

think about something else.

And i hope someone can help me think.

signing off:
glenn ong

I was prejudiced. Whenever something is wrong. It's my fault.